How it all started (One last message) Chapter 4

            CHAPTER FOUR: THE BLACK VALENTINES

            Valentines Day, lovers go out and have their time spent with each other, the hearts day were Cupid is roaming around, searing arrows to the hearts of young or not so young couples out there. This Month should be a month of Love, it should but it wasn’t for me. February 14, 2009, we were having great time, as early as eight o’clock in the morning and it was Saturday that day, we have no classes that day in our CWTS because it was indeed Valentines Day. I went to school to see her, I come with her to the internet café because they were making their MP’s in their Programming 2 subject. After that, we went to Victoria Plaza to meet the Boyfriend of Ailene and Honey. We went to SM Davao to spend our Heart’s Day there, and when we finally arrived there, Jumong(boyfriend of Ailene), Jan.mel.(boyfriend of Honey) and I, myself decided to separate ways with the girls because we had a plan, a plan to surprise the girls with something that might make them happy in this day. We roamed around the Mall, but didn’t find anything special to give to them, I thought of giving Lorraine a flower, a rose to be exact, but I searched for it but didn’t find it though I thought of going outside and there, fortunately, there was a shop out there selling roses, so we bought roses and chocolates. It was afternoon that we’ve finished our task, we went to the Game Station to meet our girlfriends, and in front of the crowd, I gave the roses to her and I said, “I Love you”. I don’t know what she have felt at that time but for me, it was relieving because for me, expressing that I loved her was a great achievement for me. After that, we went to see Rachelle Alejandro’s mini concert at the Hall of SM Davao. While watching, I decided to secretly put inside her bag the chocolates that I bought for her. She realized it when she went to the Comfort room with her friends that I gave her a chocolate. As we continue to watch Rachelle, I hugged her tightly and I’ve felt this feeling again, I was so happy that time, being with her means a lot to me. After that, we went to Matina Town Square and we had a solemn moment there, I just hugged her until the night passed out.

            That day I’d never ever forget, I love her so much… I really love her…

            February 17, 2009,  the worst day ever, it was afternoon already, she texted me “Ar, diba kung love ko nimo, set me free na beh?”… at that moment, I was at the Internet cafe with my classmate Andrei, I rushed in to her, to meet her and to talk to her, and as we talked, she told me this words, “Dili na lagi ko! Pasagdie nako! Di nako!! Bulag nata! Please set me free?!”… Those words, I never wanted to hear those words!! It stabs my heart, and at the very moment, I can’t stop but I cried in front of her classmates, maybe I showed my weakness to them but all that is important at that point is that I’ve felt pain because of that, I don’t know what to do, Damn! It hurts a lot! Ailene talked to me at Victoria Plaza and comforted me after that incident. But then, I decided to went to Gaisano Mall to see her again that day, I talked to her but nothing has changed. And before that day passed by, I gave her a tight hug outside the Mall. And I plead within, crying, longing for her, wanting to have the explaination.