How it all started (One last message) Chapter 3

CHAPTER 3: My First Love

            Ever since the day that I courted her, up to the point that she accepted my love for her, and the day she ended loving me, my feelings for her have changed and it grown deeper though we’re not committed anymore. I loved her so much and honestly, while writing these lines of our memories together, I’m crying…tears run down through my face and this feeling sucks… It hurts a lot… :’(

            Back to the topic, for our first week, we had a slight problem, we’ll there was this day and it was Friday as far as I can remember, the date was January 9, 2009. It was afternoon already and I confronted her if she does have a problem? And yes she really had a problem, a problem that she didn’t answer me directly. She wanted to break up with me and the reason was she doesn’t want to continue this anymore, and for me it was a shit… I felt pain but still I didn’t stop, it was Saturday then, I texted her and she told me the real reason, she said that “She’s afraid to fall in love with me deeply….because she don’t want to be hurt…” . I’ve been hurt but I smiled after knowing that, and after that incident, my love for her grew even more. In Sundays, I go to church and pray for this girl to be the girl of my life forever; I just can’t find someone that could much up with this girl in my heart. At the first weeks, I was kind of shy to hold her hand, I was blushing and I can’t even make a single move just to hold her hand at the first time. As far as I can remember, we were at Victoria Plaza when I first hold her hand. It was one of the best memories in my life and I wish it would never end. My life now is her life, and her life is my life. Even if I run right now, I know that I’d still come back somehow because this heart only beats because of her, because of her, Lorraine Fernandez Donasco. January 19, 2009, we went to Ailene’s house, they studied there and after studying we decided to take a walk on that place. We took pictures at great sceneries there and posed as well. We ate our dinner there and after that we decided to go home. But before going home, there was this feeling that I wanted to kiss her badly, the emotions we’re fixed but unexplainable. I told this to her friends so that they’ll be aware of what I’m planning to do, and as we walk by on the dark path, I called up her name, “Lorraine, pede mangaug kiss??^^,”. She agreed but as I looked at her, she was so nervous and she was shaking and her hands were so cold. There was a lump of mad there and she was standing over that lump. My head were reaching closer to her and she was closing her eyes, the moment was great, and as my lips reaches her lips, there it was, the best kiss of my life, our first kiss. The emotions were all mixed up. I was tangled by the feeling of being so deeply in love with her, I would never trade this girl for any vanity in this world. It’s like that I’ve won tons of gold when she answered me “yes”. Oh God, how I love this girl, and hoping that this would lasts. January was the best month for me, when I’m with her, everything seems to fall in the right place, everything was right until the day that she we had this big problem; she heard that at the time that I courted her, I also courted another girl. She didn’t text me for 2 days I think and it reaches the time that she was planning to break up with me again because of that issue. We were at Victoria with her friends, Ailene and Honey, I was so nervous at that time and the feeling was that I felt so sick. I don’t want to loose her, I really don’t want! But still, luckily, God helped me, we resolved that problem, and to think, the date was February 3, 2009, that day was our First Monthsary, funny isn’t it?

Well, lesson learned, and I should be strong with this and I know that no matter what, till the end I’ll fight for her.